Today is the very last show of our first European tour and I really don't want it to finish… I don't know… it's like I lived a dream and I just want to get back to sleep to know the beautiful end of it… At the same time it's obvious that this dream has no end as long as we're all together, the YFE family around the world, sharing, being open to each other, having fun, being crazy, encouraging each others. Face to face or behind a screen doesn't really matter ! I think that is one wonderful thing I realized. Don't think that because you're only sharing through a computer doesn't have an impact or build real things… When we are real with each others, sharing real things, being ourselves describing with our typed words what we are really going through, the relationships are slowly and beautifully birthing. You know what that means, don't be sad if you don't get to meet your online friends as soon as you would like, keep on investing your heart and passion with the people that deserve your trust. It was a chance for me to meet some of my online friends and I will never forget the moments we spent together. Although I will miss them, I don't feel sad because I know we are still together, still linked with the same love and that our hearts are linked forever.

This past week has been wonderful but also full of challenges! As you know, the guys have been sick, coughing their lungs out in the tour bus as well as on stage ! Sef lost is virile voice!lol I feel lucky I haven't been sick yet living in this viral atmosphere… The other good news is that I didn't have to cook for the rest of the trip!lol So no explosion, no fire, no liver crisis… We have been welcomed in such a great manner in all the venues we went! I got to taste real German sausages and real FRENCH fries!lol It was such a great learning experience for us all… we tend to forget that we are still a "baby band"… that means that a lot of that touring stuff is new for us and also the fact that we are all doing it by ourselves with no outside help what so ever is giving us a great challenge but you can believe that the next tour we'll be more than ready!

I think everyone in the crew and the band took such a step in all that we are meant to do and to be…Matt for example…I am so proud of him! He had to work with many different sound systems and had to work hard to give to our friends the best sound for them to enjoy the show. You have to know that depending on the shape of the room it sounds different…square or rectangle makes a difference…concrete walls or wood or any other material will affect the way Matt has to work on the mixing board…weird eh? He did such a great job… and he was not only doing that, but was also our tour manager, taking on him the responsibility of organizing the schedule, the load in and out (that is when you get the equipment in and out the venues), the sound checks, making sure we have food to eat and get a shower every once in a while (thank you!!!!), he is also making sure we have everybody on board after we stop at a gas station (you should see him counting our sweet little 15 heads like in kindergarten…lol). Hope he didn't think we were too hard to manage!lol

I am so proud of everyone… and the other thing I am so happy about is to know that all of you guys were behind us 100%, encouraging us, praying for us…that made such a difference! Because where ever we are, we are not forgetting where we're from…we're from a land called Hopeful Tragedy…a place where wounds are uncovered by shame so they can be healed surrounded by true love, a land of compassion and action, a place where no one is left behind, a safe refuge where you won't be rejected… you went through that already too often right? I did as well…my previous land wasn't accepting me as I am, wasn't believing in what I would become and wouldn't be proud of what I'd do… Just like you, I found in the YFE family my new country…my people…my destiny… I want to fight for this family…for this legacy…for this refuge that will welcome so many lost souls like me…like you… I want to fight for you… you want to be a warrior too? I love you my bros and sis…