My dear friends,
This week's diary is nothing mystic...I will not give you some weird recipe on how to get the perfect sound, the perfect emotion, the musical patterns that will for sure stay stuck in your brain and get you addicted to the point you'll buy not one but two albums...lol Anyway It's not really the way we talk here in this family right? We talk from our hearts, we talk a different language that may sound weird at first but if you've been reading Alex's blogs and my diaries for a while you can recognize every time the effort we make to be true, to be honest and to dig down deep...hoping to be able to extirpate, somehow, the essence of what composes each one of us...

The spirit of creation...
We create songs, we create lyrics, we create atmospheres and concepts but what is behind all that? How is it all crafted besides taking a guitar and press "record"? Is the birth of a song the result of luck? The sum of mathematical hit charts equations? Or some substance of hallucinating product? Maybe for some people... Maybe it has been for us too sometimes in the past...(well except the drug thing..since we are probably the most boring band in that aspect..lol no drugs...no alcohol...no coffee...uh..ok maybe coffee...lots of coffee and energy drinks...but that's it I promise...lol) I asked Ben how the spirit of creation was operating on him:

"The music comes from what I've been through, from my guts. It comes from real deep feelings inside and I need to let it out. I cannot predict what will come out... hurts, fears or anxiety... and by doing that, music heals me...music has always been there for me because as I would listen to an artist and hear that they were living through the same thing I was, it made me feel less alone...So that is what I want to do: let what I live breathe through my music...even if it's doubt or pain... I want the people who will listen to my music to realize they are not alone to go through hard times... I do too...but the hope resides in the fact that we are not alone... I will dig down deep inside of me to let my hurts rise to the surface, to let them shine in music hoping that someone somewhere will be touched and healed."

The gift of turning silence...
Being in front of your instrument and nothing comes out... "It's the biggest frustration ever!" says Ben. For talented guys like in YFE, it's easy to just spit on a piece of paper an easy catchy music pattern...but that is not what we want... we want something more... so how can we get more? We want these songs to break the silence... To break realms in the invisible...to break these walls that are keeping us away from being free and to feel alive... You won't believe it but for the longest time I had very little interest in listening to music and getting to discover artists. Hard to believe for a singer right? Well I was so blocked from my own heart, I had so many barricades to protect me that I had very little true feelings...I couldn't really understand the essence of music...I didn't need it since I didn't want to really "live" anything...sad isn't it? In the past few years I went through hard times and decided I would open up and share and slowly trust people around me to help me and trust in their love, dropped a few barricades, connected with my heart and then ...I discovered music... the real music that can transport you and talk to you...the real music that talks to your soul and impacts it. This is the type of music we want to do, but in order to do it we first need to dig down and let our soul come out... otherwise, it's silence... "When nothing comes out or when there's nothing good it's because I am not ready to let anything out, I'm all trapped inside… at this point, when I am still going through hard times and instead of keeping it all inside I want to use music to liberate me, let the truth of what I live come out... but I am so afraid to share what I am, what is living deep inside of me and expose my guts to the world...let people witness the deepest caves of my soul...so when that fear overcomes me, the silence reigns..."-Ben

Into whispers...
So here we are digging down deep inside of us...rejecting fears...fighting for the unity of our hearts...humbled by our wounds...Here we are doubtful...our only certitude is that we have bros and sis that deserve the best of us, deserve songs that will break the silence...And what if we needed that whisper so desperately ourselves first? "We are not any different than anyone else, same problems, same fears, same blind spots... That is why we need to be the first ones to be transformed by our own music...when we build a song we know right away if it's a sterile song, after an hour of work we might realize it's going nowhere, doesn't reflect what we live here...so we erase everything and start again"-Matt

So here we are in the quest for a whisper…not just a mumble, not just lip movement...

A whisper...a sound and a breath...a sound of truth and a breath of life... A sound and a movement...First in our life, then moving to yours...United through music.

I love you guys dearly and you can't even imagine how important you are in this creative season for us...